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D5 Exhaustion

Wow, I'm so tired!

I was up at 5 to give my dog a sedative to take her to the vet and back up at 7 to take her to the vet where she got her bandage removed from her foot and we got the spectacular news that she is cancer free!! WOO!!

I was trying to stay positive while we waited for the results but I didn't realize how much this was weighing on me until we got the results and it felt like a boulder had been lifted off my chest. But I also realized that anxiety and tension has been fueling me for the past 5 days and as soon as I breathed I felt like I was collapsing! My tank is completely empty. It's time to fill 'er up but this time I'm fueling my fire with good food, exercise and sleep, sleep, SLEEP!!!

I haven't had a good nights sleep in a while. I was doing really well up until recently, I had put myself on a bedtime and I was sticking to it but somehow I started staying up past the point of being tired, not getting enough sleep and then waking up in the morning on the wrong side of the bed.

But it's time to get back into the old routine. Sleeping is an essential part of a healthy lifestyle. So often we focus on food and exercise and we think that's it but it's NOT! Sleep is a huge, huge part of my weight loss journey and my healthy lifestyle. I find that not only am I in a better mood and have more energy when I sleep but I also feel more motivated to get out there and move and I'm a lot less hungry.

Being tired makes me ravenous. Today wasn't a good day :( After I got home from the vet I was falling asleep on the couch and therefore skipped my run before work and when I got to work I was starving and trying desperately not to shove my entire face into the giant tub (and I mean TUB!) of pretzels from the bulk store that a coworker brought in for us all to share. I had 5 mini pretzels, shockingly I was able to contain myself but when I got home I ended up eating more dinner than expected.

I have the weeklies, sometimes you're hungry and you need to eat. It happens. BUT, sleep will be marvelous and I'm sure that after a solid 8 hours I'll wake up tomorrow feeling invigorated and motivated and much better.

Sweet dreams everyone...



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