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Just Had A Lightbulb Moment

So, here's the reason I love blogging so much. I just wrote my 30 Before 30 list and took a long hard look back on what I accomplished during my 28th year...

Prior to writing that blog I focused SO much on the things I DIDN'T accomplish (especially weight loss wise) that I didn't focus on what I did accomplish. But I took the time to write my list and realized how much I did accomplish in my 28th year of life. 

It took me 24 years to find career I loved, then 4 years of job hopping to finally find my forever job; about 6 months ago I took a leap of faith and left my comfort zone so that I could finally work somewhere I'd be appreciated and compensated fairly. I wasn't sure it was the right thing to do, but I did it and it paid off. I know now that I've found my forever employer...hopefully they're as happy with that revelation as I am! ;-) I've almost doubled my income, we've gone from living hand to mouth with 2 incomes to having a little extra left over on mine alone (Amy has taken a temporary leave from work to focus on getting her EMT certification) and though we're not wealthy by any means we're living comfortably. There were times in our life together that we literally checked couch cushions for quarters so we would have enough to buy a McDouble off the dollar menu at McDonalds...and then there were times where we lived with my parents... parents who I love and adore and kept us from being homeless but living in your childhood bedroom with your parents AND your wife and your you mom and dad!!! :-P

We weren't living on the streets, but our rent was never paid on time, we borrowed so much from my parents we lost track of the amount and there were more nights that I cried myself to sleep worrying than feeling like "everything is going to be OK."

So while 28 was tough with personal and health stuff (unexpected and tragic loss of my brother, gallbladder issues and subsequent removal and mystery stomach illness) and I maintained (hey, at least I didn't gain!) my weight even though I wanted to lose, I accomplished SO much!! I unintentionally spent the year focusing on my career and devoted all my time and energy to it and I have SO much to show because of it. I'm not at goal, I don't run much faster than I did this time last year but we pay our bills on time! We have a car that we didn't need a cosigner for (we had a period of a few months where we didn't have a car, it was TERRIBLE!) we grocery shop for healthy (not dollar menu) foods every week and I go to bed with a smile thankful for my new job, my paycheck and my amazing experiences with coworkers and clients alike. 

28 wasn't what I expected it to be in some ways but in a lot of ways it was better than I ever could've expected. I didn't intend to make my 28th year all about my career but apparently the Universe had plans in mind for me and I didn't have enough energy to devote to my career AND my weight loss journey so I was given what I NEEDED and not what I WANTED. 

Life is funny and completely beautiful and amazing and I am SO grateful for it each and everyday. 



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