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D16 Crushing Cardio!

Last night if it could go wrong it went wrong. It probably had to do with my bad mood and my perspective because when you're already feeling crappy everything just seems crappier. I was tired when I got home and hungry!! So I ate dinner and had points left so I had a little more dinner but then I realized I forgot to track my Weight Watcher Smoothie that I drank earlier in the day.

GR!!! I was pissed!! I had planned to stay within my Daily Points Target and I forgot to track my smoothie. It felt like the end of the world because I was overtired and emotional. I know it was ridiculous but I couldn't help it.

After I tracked my points I realized I had extra points and my extra chili didn't put me over my DPT, I clocked in right where I wanted to at 26 but I didn't feel better. I still felt cranky and so I said "Tiffany, GO TO BED!"

On my way into the bedroom the cat nearly killed me because his food dish was empty and he HAD to eat RIGHT NOW!! So I fed him. Tried again to go back into the bedroom and realized the dogs should probably go out one more time. Tripped on their food bowls. WHY ARE THESE IN THE LIVING ROOM!? Put them away. Let them out. Lexi is out there FOREVER. Come on dog...I'm TIRED! Finally, about an hour after I had tried to get to bed the first time I was in bed when I heard a crash.

The kitten and the smart dog LOVE to work together to make trouble. He'll knock stuff over, she'll eat it...so I came out into the kitchen to discover he had knocked over the (thankfully!!) empty trash can.

I started to cry.

I was SO tired and I wanted to go to bed because I had planned on an hour of cardio this morning and all I could think about was "I want to sleep! I want to go to the gym tomorrow!" It was a giant snowball of emotions and I just stood there in the kitchen with tears pouring out of me like Niagara Falls.

Woe is me. Everything is ruined. I'm a failure...


Oi. It was ugly and quite honestly PATHETIC. I have no idea what brought it on but I'm also thankful for the temper tantrum for 2 reasons:

1.) It made me realize I really wanted to go to the gym. I was honestly disappointed thinking that my gym plans were getting ruined and I was going to have to skip it.

2.) It was really cathartic. I wasn't crying because of the trashcan or the idea of maybe skipping the gym I was crying for some other reason. I'm a super passionate and emotional person and my highs match my lows. Most of the time I'm high (on life, LOL!!) but I'm also human and sometimes I get stressed and apparently I was a little more overwhelmed then I realized until last night the dam broke.

When I finally got to bed I fell into the deepest most restful sleep I've had in a long time; a deep sleep that I really needed. I set my alarm for 8:30 just in case I needed it and figured that would still give me enough time to get to the gym. It would be cutting it close but at least I'd be getting my workout in, the workout I wanted so desperately!

I ended up waking up an hour before my alarm feeling amazing and I headed off to the gym for 45 minutes on the treadmill and 10 minutes on the stair climber. I haven't used the stair climber for close to a year and my gym has a crazy stair climber with actual steps like an escalator!! It's so hard!! I used to do an hour on the stair climber when it was the one with the peddles and today I felt like I was going to die after 10 minutes!! But it was super satisfying and felt really good. On the treadmill I did a "hill" workout and I mostly walked but the last 20 minutes I was really feeling good and I decided to run. I set the MPH to 6 and felt great so I went up to 6.5 a new high for me and then figured 7 sounded good and before I knew it I was running at 7 mph!! And the best part is I felt completely capable and powerful! My lungs and legs were working together like a well oiled machine and I was really feeling great until my cool down started and suddenly the machine put my down to 4.5. What a bummer!! But now that I know what I'm capable of I'll absolutely be doing that again!

When I got home from the gym I cleaned the kitchen and bathroom, showered, packed my lunch and made myself a delicious breakfast...all of that and I STILL had time to relax for a bit on the couch, watch some TV with my wife and write this blog and the best part is I still have about a half hour before I have to leave for work.

I feel much better than I did yesterday and a lot more relaxed than I have in a while. I guess I needed a good cry to cleanse my soul so I'm thankful for the disaster that was yesterday evening and even more thankful that it didn't ruin today :)

-t

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