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D31 Forgiveness

Today I'm pooped. Just utterly exhausted! And whenever I get super tired I find I'm hungrier than usual and today is no exception. I made great choices all day but my wife bought herself a chocolate bar and I practically ripped her head off. It's hers, she didn't buy it for me or offer it to me and just because I'm trying to stay on plan doesn't mean she can't indulge! And in all honesty I do have the points for a chocolate bar, I just don't have the desire for one. But I still got pissed at her for getting one and then quickly realized I should eat dinner and shut up so I did. I also apologized and she laughed it off as she always does.

At dinner there was just a teeny tiny bit left over; not enough to save but enough to make me feel guilty for tossing it so I served it to myself and at first said "it's just a bite, I don't have to count it." and then I remembered my promise to myself to track EVERYTHING so I did. I'm over my DPT by 2 but I've got the AP's to cover me, it's not that big of a deal.

But I'm tired and everything is a big deal so I got mad at myself for a minute but then quickly got over it. I realized that just because I didn't follow my plan exactly I didn't throw it all away and everything isn't ruined because I ate an extra 2 points.

I forgave myself as quickly and easily as my wife did and it felt good. I'm human, I slipped, I had a moment and it's over and done and I'm moving on! :)

Pretty proud of myself, can't even lie <3 But also pretty tired and not ashamed to admit I'm going to bed before 9 p.m.




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