I got everything ready for today last night; breakfast, lunch, snacks for the day packed and tracked! I even laid out gym clothes "just in case" figuring I'd play it by ear and see how I felt when the alarm went off at 6:15 a.m. Well it went off and I reset it for 7:15 a.m. planning to skip my workout today since it was a bonus anyways and wasn't really necessary. But my dog heard the alarm go off and as soon as she hears one of us stir she's ready to eat! So, I decided to get up and go exercise (after I fed her of course!)
I got dressed and headed to the gym because it was too dark to run outside and I don't have a flashlight or safety vest. The Y opens at 5 a.m. on weekdays so I assumed it would be open at 5 today (a Saturday) too but GUESS WHAT...when I pulled into the parking lot at 6:30 I was psyched to find there were only 2 cars in the parking lot thinking "I'll have the whole place to myself!" but in reality the whole place was actually closed. They don't open til 7...*womp*womp*
So, came home changed AGAIN and this time it was just a little lighter so I went for a 2 mile run. I had to keep it short because I had to go to work. I'm not gonna lie, I wasn't prepared for the cold so my first 1/3 mile was painfully cold and I REALLY wanted to turn around but I kept going and pushed through and I'm glad I did! I feel proud and I earned 3 AP's :)
Work was great, as always.
Then we went to a party...this is the first time in a long time I've been in a social situation where I'm trying to stay on plan or have some kind of goal in mind. I knew (for the most part) what would be there so I was able to plan what I would and wouldn't be eating. I would be eating salad (we brought it) Sweet and Sour Meatballs (my friend makes them, AMAZING!) and some fruit and veggies (minus the dip) off the platter someone brought. I knew I wouldn't be eating any dips, chips or deserts. I know I have AP's and WP's and I can use them for things I really want and I know it's OK to indulge and I encourage EVERYONE to indulge however, I also know that one chip leads to the entire bowl and 1 cookie leads to a cupcake, a slice of pie, another slice of a different pie, brownies, more chips, more dip and before I know it I'm out of control.
I like to indulge when I can weigh, measure and track my indulgences because I am no strong enough at this point to have a spoonful without having a giant plateful. I thought it was going to be hard saying no but surprisingly I did really well. The fruit platter was super delicious and I definitely over indulged in the fruit (hello anxious eating!) but it's fruit so I'm trying not to beat myself up. My friend makes a really yummy pumpkin dip and serves it with nilla wafers and graham crackers and I allowed myself one cookie with a little dip and it was good but it was really sweet so I didn't eat anymore. I had a lot of salad and I measured out 2 tablespoons of dressing by using a teaspoon 6 times...I think a tablespoon=3 teaspoons...? Or something like that. I filled up on the salad before I ate anything else. Later on in the evening I was hungry because I ate light during the day to prep for the party expecting I'd be indulging more than I did but despite the copious amounts of junk I didn't really want it. I just kept thinking about how I am going to be training for a triathlon very soon and how training is going to be tough and I need to eat to fuel my body and eating all of that junk was just going to slow me down and make training even harder. But I also needed to eat something other than lettuce and fruit so I got a couple slices of turkey and some pickles and ate that.
When I got home I still had 6 points left and I knew that not eating enough is as bad as eating too much. We need to properly fuel our bodies!! So I made myself a can of Progresso Light Creamy Chicken and Dumpling Soup for 5 points. I am still shy of my DPT by 1 but it's really late and I've got to work in the a.m. and I ate so much fruit and veggies at the party I'm honestly too full!!
The party could've gone better; I could've indulged with moderation; I could've made myself a salad with some meat on in it; I could've eaten better during the day (more, higher points, more protein) or I could've eaten dinner before the party and avoided the kitchen all together BUT...I also could've said "today doesn't count"; I could've eaten all the graham crackers (binge city. They're my favorite!); I could've drank soda or booze; I could've eaten A LOT more meatballs; I could've sampled all the chips and dips there were; I could've had one of every baked good; I could've brought goodies home; I could've stuffed my pockets with candy from the candy bowl.
So no, I wasn't perfect and maybe I was a little too rigid and stuck to my plan a little too much but I could've done what I used to do and I would've regretted that. This is a learning experience for me! It's hard to be in a situation where I'm not comfortable and not in control but I'm also not going to bring my food scale or my own food with me everywhere I go. I am trying to learn to make this a lifestyle, I'm trying to learn to live a HEALTHY lifestyle and though today wasn't the healthiest it was healthier than it could've been and it'll be better next time.