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D40 "If Only..."

I often find myself thinking "if only..."

...if only I had started sooner...

...if only I hadn't taken that "break"...

...if only I had been consistent about lifting weights...

...if only I believed in myself then the way I believe in myself now...

...if only I had known then what I know...

How would my journey be different? Would I be at goal by now? Would my body look different? Would I be more successful?

But the truth is if only doesn't matter! What matters is what I do now and from this moment forward. The time I spent not doing what I'm doing now, the breaks I took, the inconsistency with food and working out all brought me to where I am now. I'm not the kind of person who learns by succeeding right off the bat. The frustrating truth is I need to fall on my face a million times so I can learn to get up! Getting up after I fall is like lifting weights, haha! The more I do it the stronger I get!!

Everything happens for a reason, everything happens the way it's supposed to and all those "if only's" and "what if's" are just taking up precious space in my mind. I don't have time for those negative thoughts! I am filling my mind with positive thoughts and replacing the what if's and if only's with positive thoughts.
...if only I had started sooner...
I'm glad I waited to start my journey until I was ready! I wouldn't have had long term success if I started my journey for a reason like "shedding for the wedding". Starting my journey simply to feel better made it a lifestyle whereas (for me) shedding for the wedding would've been a diet. I would've crashed and burned!

...if only I hadn't taken that "break"...
I'm glad that I am taking this journey at my own pace. Breaks and all! The plateaus were tough but I learned a lot about myself by getting stuck and more importantly getting unstuck! Not being on a timeline for my journey has made it possible for me to have long term success. 

...if only I had been consistent about lifting weights...I'm so proud of myself being consistent with my weight lifting recently! 

...if only I believed in myself then the way I believe in myself now...
I'm very proud to say that I am a different person now than I was then! I have a new found faith in myself and it drives me forward everyday! 

...if only I had known then what I know...
Being on this journey has been a learning experience and I'm truly grateful for all the lessons I've learned along the way! I've lost a lot but I've gained a lot more!!

It's a work in progress but what part of this journey isn't? There is no finish line and that's a beautiful thing <3

-t

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