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D53 I've Taken Too Much Time Away From Myself

I'm really regretting that I've taken a HUGE break from my blog. I was doing great! Committed to an every day post but then I got busy with my job and started neglecting I often do.

Luckily I've been doing really good despite not blogging! I hit my 100 again, I ran a 5K with a record time of 30:22 (!!!),  I bought a car...

Like things are ridiculously good!! But I realized today that I'm REALLY missing my daily blog. I miss talking myself through issues and talking about my victories both on and off the scale and today I got tired and stressed and ate, and ate, and attttteeeee...


I have done SO well controlling my urges to binge lately; today was really awful. I wouldn't consider it a full on binge by any means. I ate a lot but it was a lot of power foods; I am tired and I was too hungry and I'm a little nervous about tomorrow and that's NOT a reason to eat.

But tomorrow I'll go back to the gym for weights and cardio before the big feast and I think I've got a good plan for dinner. I've pre-planned and tracked and I'll be using some of my WP's and AP's but I'm OK with that. It's Thanksgiving. It's one day. I'll indulge and enjoy myself but I won't binge or continue my HoliDAY eating throughout the week.

I'm wiped and I need to get my pumpkin spice cake muffins out of the oven but I will make it a point to get back on this blog DAILY even if it's just to say "I'm here!"

I have SO much to say, but not enough energy to say it all :(

But I'll be back!


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