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D55 Anxiety Eating

The past couple of days I've been out of my normal routine and it's caused me a LOT of anxiety...I used to suffer with tremendous panic and anxiety but I've gotten over it and I've been able to really control it through coping skills and personal growth and yada yada but the past couple of days I've been an anxious mess...

Not needing medicine or anything like that but I self medicated with food...Wednesday I was nervous about Thanksgiving and therefore had the hungry horrors and though it could've been worse I was disappointed with my lack of control. Yesterday wasn't terrible and today I'm only 2 points over my DPT but I still ate BECAUSE I was anxious. Not because I was hungry.

I'm trying to remember tomorrow is a new day, a fresh start, a chance to try again but I'm disappointed with myself and worried that I won't be strong enough to fight emotional eating tomorrow.

BUT I WILL.


I am strong. I'm a fierce, strong amazon!! I AM WOMAN! HEAR ME ROAR!!!!!!!

I've overcome a lot more than a couple of off days, I can get myself back on track :) I WILL get myself back on track.

Tomorrow my schedule returns to normal, thank god! And we're going grocery shopping tomorrow night which we've needed to do for quite some time. We didn't go pre-holiday because we didn't want to deal with the crowds and of course knew we'd have leftovers but we didn't realize how EMPTY our fridge would be...my meal plan tomorrow is a disaster but it'll get me through.

Thankfully I've been working out so I'm earning AP's and that's helping my sanity a little and also helping me combat the points I emotionally ate...I'm not worried about the points, I'm worried about the emotional eating. That behavior, I don't want to fall back into that habit... 


So I won't.

If you believe it, you will achieve it. So...

I believe I am strong, capable, a fighter and I've proven that already! I have done it once, I can do it again! I'm amazing.

So watch out, emotional eating! I'm coming for you!!

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