With Weight Watchers I lost 107 pounds. I was "morbidly obese" my entire life. I was 6 the first time I heard the word and the number just kept creeping up. Though I was never sick I knew I was a ticking time bomb. At any point I could wake up with type 2 diabetes or drop dead from cardiac arrest.
I went to the surgeons office to discuss gastric bypass and left in tears. I knew I would lose weight if I had weight loss surgery but I also knew I wouldn't keep it off. I knew I'd be like the majority of patients and gain it all back...I knew I didn't need to fix my stomach...I needed to fix my mind.
Over the course of 5+ years I slowly but surely chipped away at the mountain in front of me. 100+ pounds is a big number and it was daunting and overwhelming. There were many trials and error. Many times I slipped and stayed down for months at a time. There was blood sweat and tears and at times it was ugly. At times it still is.
Getting to goal and being on maintenance doesn't mean you're over the ugly or that you're cured. This is a lifestyle and to be (and stay) successful that means you've got to live that lifestyle. Every. Damn. Day.
The thing about WW though is that if you forget your "why" and you slip and you revert to the habits that got you to your before it's OK. You can always start fresh. It's never too late!
I didn't just lose 107 pounds with Weight Watchers. I gained self respect, confidence and I can really and truly say I love myself. And that's not because I'm "skinny". Honestly, I struggle with labeling my appearance these days. If you asked me I would definitely not refer to myself as skinny or thin; I still see myself the way I used to be most days but I know that's just because my minds eye hasn't caught up yet. I can't recognize the transformation in the mirror sometimes but I can absolutely recognize the change in the way I feel.
And that's where the confidence and the self respect comes from. I FEEL good because I take care of myself not because I weigh 1-something or wear single digit clothing sizes.
Because I did something I never thought I could do on my own, I have the confidence to take chances outside of weight loss journey. I shaved my head, I wear bright lipstick, I bought my first bikini! I say yes to opportunities to try my hand at new things knowing it might not work but being brave enough to try anyway.
I am not "before-Tiffany" anymore and as much as I love her because she's the one who walked through the doors of WW weighing over 250 pounds, I never want to be her again.
She was brave enough to get me started but she was shy, insecure and quite honestly a doormat. She didn't value herself and didn't realize how important she actually is.
But, without her I wouldn't be me. I wouldn't have walked through the doors of a church in Wareham, MA to find a family sitting on the other side. Receptionists and a leader and members who were there to offer friendship support and even on occasion tough love. And without her I wouldn't have lost my weight and started working for the company that gave me life.
I am so grateful that I have been given the opportunity to pay it forward as a Weight Watchers receptionist and so excited that in a few short weeks I will be flying to Chicago for leader training!!!!
There are absolutely no words to express how excited I am. I've struggled, I still struggle! I'm not cured by any means and I never will be but that's EXACTLY what makes me a great candidate for the job. I look forward to getting to share, celebrate and troubleshoot with members. I look forward to the opportunity to guide people into a life they thought they'd never have or didn't deserve. I'm so excited to hopefully inspire and instill faith in people who, like before-Tiffany felt hopeless.
I couldn't have done it without the support from my amazing team and the amazing members at my meeting. I only hope I can create the same supportive and motivated environment when I'm the one up front facilitating the meetings...
I can't believe I'm going to be a leader! I'm SO excited!