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D12 Variety!

I remember once when I was shopping with my extremely thin sister and her extremely thin friend asking the sales associate for a certain top to bring to them in the dressing room. I was in a store I had never shopped at and could not shop at because I far exceeded the top of their size range.

The associate looked at me disgusted and said "they're one size fits all". Well, excuse me. Bitch.

I was very limited to the stores I could shop at. Some department stores had Plus Size sections and there were a few specialty stores but I couldn't shop at 95% of stores at the mall.

Charlotte Russe opened at our local mall a couple years ago and I wanted to go in so badly when I saw it. I loved the shoes and the clothing on the mannequins and I wanted to see more but I was terrified. Every time we went to the mall I'd slow down and admire the window and I'd keep walking. My wife kept asking me if I wanted to go in but I kept refusing.

One time she lovingly pushed a little too far grabbing my arm and saying "come on babe!" pulling me toward the entrance. I became so anxious I thought I was going to have an anxiety attack! I didn't want to walk into that store, I was terrified of it! I was afraid I'd walk in and look at clothes and people would look at me and think "you don't belong".

Finally one day I got brave enough to go in and let me tell you, they have some great shoes!! I did buy a few skirts and tops from them and I like their sales; I don't go often but I like that I can if I want to. I like that I can walk into almost any store now and shop! I don't always love what I find, but it's easier now to find things than it was then.

Maybe I'll start to get a little more creative with my wardrobe soon. I've expanded the stores I shop in (because I can!) but not the colors and styles I always pick.




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