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Living Is Learning

I just started a new job and we give candy  to clients but of course if there’s candy I’m going to eat it and I cannot have just 1. The first day I ate 5... the second day I promised myself I would only eat 1 then I worried the entire day that if I ate 1 I would probably want another and I didn’t want to eat more than 1...I drove myself so crazy that I ended up eating 10 
I’m admitting this because I know you won’t judge me but I was full of shame and I felt sick after inhaling all those peppermint patties. 
I’ve been slowly building up to a pretty significant change in my eating and the incident with these candies was the straw that broke the camels back. 
Even though I know I CAN eat whatever I want, even though I know that deprivation and restriction DOES NOT WORK, I am also realizing that some “foods” are just not worth it. 
I was afraid to tell myself I “couldn’t” have any candy because I did a very restrictive diet and really wrecked myself but I also need to set some boundaries bec…
Today was a much better day than yesterday. I was tired so I slept in a little. At one point while half asleep I thought “I should get up, I have to eat breakfast before I go. Oh well, maybe I’ll just get an egg sandwich from Dunkin’ Donuts this morning since we don’t have much food in the house.” Then I remembered I’m taking a break from processed foods for a bit since they’re having a significant impact on my eating and I climbed out of bed to make myself a bowl of fat free Greek yogurt with some strawberries and an egg that I ate at my dining room table. I made my own coffee at home and saved money and points.
It’s the first time in a really long time that I didn’t hit the Dunkin’ drive through for a large iced coffee. 2 points. 3 bucks. 
Every. Single. Day.
I had plans to meet my sister for a pedicure after my first meeting and I was REALLY hungry so I stopped at the supermarket first because I knew I could get something “safe” there. I remember from my Whole 30 days that Lara Bars a…

Ready To Take Control...Again...

Last week at WW we talked about body acceptance and appreciating where we are wherever we are. I put on a dress I was waiting to wear until I lost a few more pounds and rocked it despite the fact that I hadn't lost the weight I thought I needed to lose to wear it. I felt empowered so I posted it on Instagram and I got so many compliments about how great I looked. It was a pretty amazing experience to accept my body as it is and not feel like I had to lose more weight to be deserving of wearing a beautiful dress but the moment was fleeting. 

The longer I look at this photo the more I realize how fake it actually is. The smile, the caption about "appreciating what you have".I am not appreciative of what I have right now. I have lost a lot of definition that I worked really hard for, I have found a lot of weight. My weight is physical  manifestation of how I'm feeling right now and while I'm totally pro-body positive and I truly believe that health isn't equated …

Living Wellness

I signed up for massage school on a whim; I'd never had a massage and had no idea how endless the possibilities in the field were but my wife was signing up for school and I was jealous. "If you get a new career I want one too!"

I am incredibly lucky my leap of faith didn't end with a splat! Not only did I fall in love with the field but I discovered a talent I didn't know I had. Not to toot my own horn (toot toot!) but I'm actually a pretty good therapist, or so I'm told.

I have been a Licensed Massage Therapist for over 8 years and with each day I'm more passionate about my career. Joining Weight Watchers shortly after I started practicing as an LMT opened my eyes to how integrated this entire wellness journey is. To live a healthy, balanced life we need to focus on habits, not just eating at a calorie deficit. Weight Watchers has taught me a lot about balance it has taught me how to focus on things Beyond The Scale. It has taught me to be more mind…

Pound Fitness

Pound Fitness:
"Instead of listening to music, you become the music in this exhilarating full-body workout that combines cardio, conditioning and strength training with yoga and pilates-inspired movements. Using Ripstix, lightly weighted drumsticks engineered specifically for exercising POUND transforms drumming into an incedibly effective way of working out." I have spent an incredible amount of time feeling lonely and excluded. My weight ostracized me. I felt isolated and alone then I joined WW and I found people who understood me; now I work for WW and I have found a family. Because of WW I have a newfound confidence. I am brave enough to try new things and get wayyyy out of my comfort zone cause I know no matter what, I’ve got people who are going to catch me if I fall when I take a leap of faith. 
Pound Fitness is a physical manifestation of what WW is to me. It is connection, literally and figuratively. When I slam my Ripstix against the floor I’m getting low enough in my…